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it's really been awhile, haven't it? actually.. i've been wanting to blog.. since the day of CNY.. but, it has been busy for me.. and for the second day, i just dont have the mood to blog. after that, i had some time for me to spare. but, still i didnt blog. and then, it was time for preparing of CTs. and now, its time preparing for the exams, that i suddenly felt the urge to blog.

i've changed the song to lie - by big bang. actually, i was interested in other kpop and jpop, but too bad, in sec sch, my surrounding girls dont listen to them. they're only interested in eng & mandarin. LOl. yes, i know zhixiang loved kpop, but havent got a chance for him to intro me to it. and now, taima's made me addicted! Yes, it's all her fault. muaahahaa. omg. (that's my evil side being noticed!) duh, anyway, dont think she will come visit so often. haha. so, dont care. :D

i have been telling myself to start making notes, though its a bit late now. but, i just dont have the motivation. damm. -.- and i've been reading skip beat these days. :S until i really dont have the mood to start any studying. on the other hand, i'm afraid, that if i dont do well for these exams, i will drop on my gpa. yet, for me, its only thinking on my part. when did i ever have the perseverance and determination to study really really hard?

sometimes i think that me, coming to this world, seems so strange to me. it's as if i dont know this world at all. my existence, is redundant. i feel that i dont have any goal in life, as compared to others, i felt i was worthless. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE IN THIS WORLD?
everybody has their own goals, ambitions. what are MINE? I seriously dont know. Why do i always feel in this shitty way? damm it.

im sorry, i dont mean to write emo entry on every update. but, it's just my habit, of writing in here. at least, i think this is a place where i can keep my memories well. (though people say its not worth memorizing the miseries) i should really, get started to think of what i actually want? but, i really dont know; where to start from?

why do people living in fortunate dont know that they are actually FORTUNATE? why do people grumble when they just had a bit of difficulty in their life? why do people complain so much? why is there no peace in the world? why do people waste their time around? (typically me) why doesnt people understand? why dont i understand the intentions of others? WHY am i being so ungrateful and arrogant? WHY WHY? TELL ME WHY!!!