HUIXUANNN Thursday, May 3, 2012
dear diary,woah. aiseh! how long has this been? haha. more than 6 mths!!! oh god! to think i actually can survived with this. haha.
have been going through a lot of changes ever since beginning of this year. im glad im going thru all these. change all i can now, and be better. (:
recently, after these 3 mths of hard work, ive been really stressed up and tired. gotten too many rejections. been too emotionally wrecked. i've already stepped out to change for the better, i shall survive it thru e end! there's been people who hasnt been willing to step out of their comfort zone and change for the better. i'm glad that i've actually walked out of it and change ever since.
yes, no doubt this job is more tiring. but it definitely is more satisfying than the previous one. no doubt i have banged too many walls on my own, been hurt for umpteenth times, but i had come this far! i will survive! (:
there's been many things that i'm worried with lately. due to my high 'S' i've gotten into a lot of complicated and unnecessary trouble. there's also been quite a number of unclosed cases. for the next half of the year, i shall aim for istanbul and work hard to my mini next year! although there's still a chance that i might change the mini to smth else.... hahhaahaha.. i need to save enough $$ to buy something first. d:
i really need to change... i must stop thinking so much... and stop thinking about those pessimistic stuffs and work hard for my future. (: i shall need to forget everything. every single thing that was the past. this is the new me! i have to embrace it! i shall live on happily, and survive independently. i believe i can! gambatte hui xuan!
love,
nancy
11:12 PM