26 December 2009 Saturday
wow, this is the first time i went out w people for a picnic. wore jeans and tee cos i suspect that it
ll rain, cause its rainy season. and of cause, it is on and off. so irritated. but luckily the last time
we faster go off le, cause it doesnt seem to stop after waiting for a few minutes. ._. and so the rain started until like 5pm. sian de leh. we like reach at about 12++. then like 145 or earlier started raining a bit. ._. lol. idiot. make until our picnic like in the cafe. sianded lo. i dint take much photos. the sun was quite strong. den our spot like facing the sunlight. hard to open eyes. ): and i dint brought my cam along. thats why nvr take much. LOl. after that went home and helped my mom tidy house. so tired.

27 December 2009 Sunday
Yay, there's no classes today. (: we slacked at home. heh.

31 December 2009 Thursday
Yipeee! Another half day! (: going over to shuhui's chalet later. have to head home first. we're gonna eat, den pack and go out. haha. oh, and i realised im like only meeting pebble and huishan for movie later. all of the rest not going. ._. i knew it so last minute. omg. lol. and in the end, we dint catch the movie cos the queue was long like hell, and it was already 4.30pm when we are supposed to watch 4.20pm show. LOL. and so we went to ljs as huishan was hungry. we settle down and she bought food. she began asking loads of questions. lol. it was then she kept asking her to come down. pebble saw a cute girl. and we were like keep coincidently meeting her. LOL. she came in the end. we went arcade as huishan wanted to play basketball. we saw the girl at century sq too. LOL! damn coincidence. anw, they 2 buy same anklet to wear. pebble keep ask me choose. but i dont know which is more suitable for her. acty huishan choose that green was really nice. but i thought pebble want a different color, so im thinking hard. but in the end she got green too. LOL! she came. and then, we went to slack awhile, wait for them to smoke finish. and then we went off to chalet.

Yay. it was so fun. it was really the first time we all went to chalet tgt. was very tired though. i was there helping shuhui to prepare the chocolate fondue fruits and mashmallows. was also busy when we reach there not long after cos we played w the niece. ahhhhhh~ she's cute. really, children are so naive and cute when they were young. sighs. if only people dont have to grow up. dint play much w the nephew, cause i dont take initiative towards kids & people. babies are exception because they really only know how to express their emotions and cant do anything else. they need people to care for them. acty the rest of the girls were quite slack as we slacked in the room. the guys did all the bbq and they have food to eat. good right. haha. lol. i made some sticks of chocolate fondue w mashmallow for them. huishan still wanted to eat all! haha. lol. but she stopped after eating a stick or two. lol. but the chocolate is really heavenly. haha. yummmy. (: but guess what i had for dinner. a pinch of vermicelli + chocolate fondue + a pinch of chips + coke. smart huh. but surprisingly i was kind of full. we went out and played w sparkles. yay. was quite some time since we played that. (: nicee. meiqi and fangning left.

we played draw and guess game. (cant rmb the correct name) and losers gotta drink champagne. urgh. sick leh. my drawing + guessing is e lousiest la. walau. and they keep let us guess those dirty things. S: urgh. dont even understand what they're talking how to guesS??!?!! cheat one. ): and it was like after drinking and having endless fun, my "friend" come find me. walau. damn suey. zzz. we had a game of mahjong later at like 12+ 1am. wow, i didnt forget leh. but i played super badly. ._. shuhui still dont know how to play lo. even worse. haha. LOL. but i was really tired at that point of time. wanted to rest, but it was hard for us to gather again. its already hard enough to gather tgt, much less no need to say having time within the five of us. although we were not very close in the past, but after this chalet we are even closer. zhiheng, shuhui knows most of my stories. patrick + russell dont really know. we had the truth session, and dont know why the dice keep stopping at my turn. ._. weird. i thought they should have numerous questions, but there wasnt as much as i thought. haha. okay, fine, i know patrick and russell dont care one. haha. and zh, shu know most of it so they dont have to ask much already. haha. lol. im curious about brian. LOL. i realised i ask a lot of questions la. hahaha. D: okay, i can understand russell. haha. anw, i went to sleep at around 4am. i actually wanted to leave at 3am. but i frgt about the time. LOL.

im not gonna say here anymore. i dont want others to read. its not fair when they only understand the outside part. and i so realise that it is very important that i really have to learn how to be a masked person as well. because most of the people are wearing a mask. if i dont wear one, i will be the one to die first. i hate masked people, because they are not real at all. its really hard and rare to find a good friend and which the friendship can lasts. im scared of split personality people, for i think im kind of one. but i think its so much better to know that someone has a split character instead of not knowing and realising only after you've been backstabbed.



seriously, i dont think i can be a very good friend. for in the past, i've spent my youth away on
jared+rainer. which to me now, really seems idiotic. for i have been putting them as first priority, not even trying to balance with friends. but hey, that doesnt mean that you can juggle well. everyone's having troubles with that. singles, dont think you can handle it better than the couples okay. when it's your turn, you'll know. a lot of us are trying to balance it. but seriously, there's no way one can balance it. in some way or another, there's always only one to choose. i know, i've been giving people attitudes. im shocked at how huishan talks sense into me. i know you understand. but there's people out there who dont. really. i really cannot use my image as my happiness anymore. its unfair, i know. but i hated people who dont know, dont understand and yet they are talking all about it. its sickening, im telling you. and why do you even bother to cover up when you're exposed? lol. it's ridiculous, really. cant someone be REAL to me?


1 January 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

although im really not happy at all. lol.