okay, i have not blogged for some time. almost a month. haha. a lot of things happened during these times. first, i need to thank those that had gave me advices and accompany. i really would have broke down if it wasnt for all that. and i think i really have to quit tearing up+ need to brush up on acting happy on my face when im not + have a better and peaceful mind -- giving people benefit of the doubt (hoho's phrase). urgh, all these are enough for me to learn for this year. sickening.

oh, and fyp is ending so soon. omg. time is flying~~ and im actually not done with half i think. LOL. i think someone could just kill me. urgh. i hate midnight oils. zzz. but have to start burning or else i think i really couldnt finish my project. ._. im currently transferring some stuffs which takes very long. ._. that explains why im here. im sorry about saying sad stuffs here again, after so long. but it really seems that i have so much more bad stuffs to say rather than good ones. its really a long time ago since i've had a great time. T.T im sorry, i will try to have more better memories. (:


many quarrels, misunderstandings have occurred. it wasnt really as simple as i thought it would have been for me. i cannot answer to that question. i dont know why, or what had pulled me back. whether is it really i had half of it in the grave, or whether i just dont want something bad to happen. i had the urge to get out of it, but because of just a sentence i have stopped.

it really is not the same anymore. perhaps is because of last time, and all those accumulated misunderstandings. because of her, you have been giving me all sorts of excuses, trying to side her, and also lying to me. nvm, im fine with it, if you still think that it's the same as others. i am very tired of telling you and yet, having you not believing me at all. when the time comes, we will all know.