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5 November 2009 Saturday
I'm supposed to go out w shu later. yay. looking forward to it. cos we shall go visit the new shopping centre. and it's gonna b e first time im gg out w her, looking for her things. LOL. cos its like always me buying stuffs, and she dont buy any one. ._. LOL. and im gonna give her a surprise. lol. acty i need to stay home w my mom to pack her luggage as she's leaving for india this coming tuesday, and we havent got any time tmrw. but instead i told my mom i was gg out. ): felt guilty towards her as i couldnt help her pack, and no one will be helping her with it. ): and then we're supposed to go for meiqi's celebration ltr at night too, at butter fac. im gonna go out the whole day! im supposed to be happy, but im not as we're like some sort of arguing over that matter. its e first time we ever argue/quarrel until like that. its like a bit ridiculous when i think back again.

anyway, later in the afternoon she messaged me and ask if we could meet another day as she need do smth for her grandma. truthfully, i was upset. cause i have planned nicely for everything then suddenly need to postpone le. i cant reject her also, otherwise, she'll become a unfillial granddaughter to her grandma. that'll be my fault. i accidentally send her wrong message, and she told me, but was like kind of angry w me. but i was also angry at that point of time, so i just replied in a manner that was not very nice. ._. i know i shouldnt be upset over this. i mean its really not right for me to get upset just cos of this. but i just cant control la. ._. cos its the first time im doing this, i want to make it perfect, and make sure nothing goes wrong. but suddenly, everything has to stop. its too sudden for me. i just hope it wont happen again. or else i really dont think i have the confidence to make it well.


i shant say much about the incident over meiqi's celebration le. its not gg to do any of us good. im sorry that i couldnt go to butter fac that day.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, MEIQI!


6 November 2009 Sunday
today was very busy as usual. ._. lessons and more lessons. im glad im picking up fast. but i really hate it cos i dont have enough time to practise at home. urgh~ went back to sbw w mom after lesson. partly cos can acc her and partly cos i can wake up later at sbw. hahaha! good. (: sianded. watched tv, eat, slacked, play w nephew and then finally sleep. and i hate it when i cant sleep and keep tossing & turning around. urgh~ whats wrong w me? why cant i get to sleep?!??!?!

7 November 2009 Monday
very very tired as i don have enuf sleep. /: i cant believe i just want to close my eyes in the morning!! everytime i c the com in front of me i want to sleep. ._. LOL. i nearly fell asleep la. few times i caught myself close eyes for more than 3 minutes? LOL. wonder if anyone saw. ._. i dont want VIP/sup to have bad impression of me just the 2nd wk?!?! LOL. if not i will die badly for my grades. S: sian one. slacking the whole day. been doing research, but aiya, really hard to do leh. stupid c#. hate programming. T.T i wish i could do smth i was more familiar with. sighs.

anyway, went to tamp w xq for dinner. just returned home not long after then my sis ask me go back tamp to get some other stuffs for my mom. very funny one lo. its my fault also cos my hp no batt le, den i dint bother to call my sis using xq hp. LOL. den she kept scolding me cos of that. ._. S: went there and she like kip nagging at me and asking me to pack my mom luggage w all those she buy and all. LOL. S: den i finally went home and my mom was already back from her lesson. LOL. and i repack her luggage w her. S: was damn tired la. we pack until like 12 plus one den sleep. urgh. i still have to go airport tmr. S:

8 November 2009 Tuesday
Mom's flying tdy!! ): i woke up damn early. no, my mom woke up even earlier, though she's very tired. she still got some things haven pack in. i cont sleep in a while more, then i wake up at 6. @.@ damn sleepy. have to wake up cos i know i sure ll drag time one. haha. LOL. luckily i did. faster help her w last min preparation. den we leave house. lucky go down have cab. den went in. LOL. my mom still thought wan take bus siol. when it was like already 650, and she have to reach at 720. LOL. and the luggage damn heavy. lol. how to carry siol. some more bus sure crowded one. ._. wa, this time i shocked, cos she dint reject taking cab. LOL. if not she always die also dowan take cab. even that time her leg injured also. ._. really know how to save, but she's saving those that cannot be saved. ._.

reach airport quite early. there wasnt much jam. chatted w her frens and all. i still thought there was a lot of time as we reach quite early. i planned to go off at 720+ one. but then they keep talking then haven get passport to check in all that. her good fren's daughter came to talk to me. haha. omg. she changed! LOL. finally when they gg check in, i see my hp, it was 7.37am. wa, so late. den i faster say i wan go off le. i dint hug her or ant. i just don dare. i just said bye, take careand bon voyage to her. ): when i walk away, tears were in my eyes. i dont know why. but i jus fil so sad that she's leaving. T.T I hope she'll be fine. ): now that im saying about her, i rained again. ): i really cannot imagine what my life would be if she's gone. T.T i cant sleep tonight again.

9 November 2009 Wednesday
Was really bored to do fyp la. especially my lab. walau. So many ppl. yet the lab is very quiet. when you talk, people can hear euu even though they dont sit beside you. and when you drop something everyone will turn and look around to see. LOL. this is so no life. ._. worse was that, some manager came our lab, talking to DT. then later he walk pass ray's com and see him playing games. then he got his name down. walau! scary la. i thought he was just some normal lecturer. ._. omg. and then later this guy came again. he and the other lecturer talked to justin and rozz about the competition thing. ._. justin said directly to him that he doesnt want to join competition siol. wow. that shocked me. he was so brave. omg. then they just kip persuade him to join. LOL. standard one siol. the lecturers all like want us to join. justin really already kip rejecting, but they still like forcing him to join. ._. then ltr de guy go around asking one by one, our projects and all. walau. havent come until me leh. cos jus nice go home time. but die liao la. he sure ask me tmrw la. shit. if i mention ant about doing smth related to competition, i think he sure ask me join justin group and go tgt lo. wapiang. i dono how la. ): save me!!!!

was out w ger after school. supposed to meet at 645, i kay zhua go tell her 7pm better. cos i scared i ll late. in the end i zhun zhun 6.40+ reach lo. wa piang. zzzz. den have to wait for her lo. sian leh. ._. zao zhi dao i dont change timing la. ._. sighs. wa, we chatted a lot leh. mainly she do most talking la. haha. but we really can chat a lot siol. hahaha. LOL. we v random one. any topic also can say. haha. lol. must go out w her more often! can train to talk more. (: i really need to learn a lot more things. wasted a lot of my youth already. told her i really regretted spending so much time on bfs in the past. cause i dint really have time to spend w the rest of my frens because im ignorant. im sorry to all. im changing for the better. (: i hope i can spend more time w 08ofus and other peeps that im close w. oh, and we saw sengwei just now. LOL. he waved to me, but not to her? LOL. damn weird. she kips saying its cos of her new hair style. i doubted it at first, but im beginning to believe now. LOL.

gonna sleep now. really really late. i need to work up on my proj liao. havent even started. i can bang wall liao le. sighs. supposed to sleep at 12. drag and drag again. k le. see ya.

update: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RUSSELL!